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What’s the mean? horse blinders? actually horse blinders has different meaning in my dictionary. Still focus. Still consistency.  A horse that still walk whatever the condition is crowds, their still move in other place and accept everything distraction.  Why? because they never seen beside of their. Not because of they are ignore with environment, but their main motion from coachman. Because coachman want the horse need to focus. Maybe without the device, they can distraction easily by crowds, horns, or people on the side of the road, even though their goal is clear : to continue to the destination according to the coachman’s instruction. SAME!! Sometime people need horse blinders, its not really wearing blinders on a horse. But a mindset to keep moving forward without any distraction by things have nothing to do with our personal improve. Because what people say or environment is too noisy with unclear standard: its not our business . In our life , we have “coachmen” is our ...

These days, people are overthinking almost everything, especially when it comes to personal achievements. It’s likely one of the factors driving our stress levels up, making us obsess over small details. Overthinking is actually something we can manage ourselves, but sometimes it’s just tough to stay focused on one thing, let alone avoid overthinking altogether. And now, in the digital era, we’re constantly bombarded with information and trends from everywhere, especially social media. Our brains end up overloaded trying to process it all, which only leads to more overthinking and confusion about what information really matters.   Scrolling through social media can feel like a quick escape or a way to heal, but sometimes, without realizing it, we start comparing ourselves to others. We see others on vacation, in better jobs, or in healthy relationships, and it makes us feel like we’re not enough, driving us to overthink and wonder, “Why am I not like that?” When friends consta...

Hellow! how has it been lately? has it been busy? or do you always have a full schedule? oughh that's definitely REALLY tired!! but, have you ever felt that the activities we are doing are not working? like we never felt the result, it wasn't like our plan or what we thought about it. Maybe it's our fault in managing our time or we're not grateful for everything. Sometimes we think that if in one day we always do heavy activities and almost spend a lot of time it is a ‘productive person’ but we also forget there is such a thing as ‘busy people’, being a busy person does not mean that we achieve something significant. Sometimes we often feel busy doing many small things, but not focusing our energy on tasks that are really important and impactful, i think that's what makes us feel that what we do is not working in ourselves.  The fun fact is multitasking also sometimes makes us slower in completing tasks because our minds are not focused on one thing and research pro...

Easy they come, easy they go I jump from the train, I ride off alone I never grew up, it's getting so old Help me hold onto you I've been the archer I've been the prey Who could ever leave me, darling? But who could stay? -the archer- taylor's song the song its so relate in some people are you still here? hows your feeling the "victims" of heartache made by yourself? are you still remember about the good moments with him/her/ yourself? i think It's absolutely normal to miss those times and feel a little lost when they're not there anymore.  we as "victims" or maybe "pelaku" must also always remember where, when, or even the crazy efforts we make sometimes the results are not that crazy.  and now maybe the results are already looking bad, we don't know if the process is wrong or if it's from ourselves that's wrong,  I'm still happy with the butterfly era is ending the opponent has left the battlefield, I've been t...

  i haven't intro music for this topic, so how's your opinion about independent woman or independent girl? i think we often meet like this in this era, who doesn't want to be a woman who is independent and has character? definitely i said "I AM!" be know being an independent person is a difficult journey, we must try hard and sometimes, if we don't continue with our self-belief, it can feel like the whole world is against us. but that's where the magic happens! In those moments of doubt and struggle, we find our true strength.  and be independent person is choosing, you want you must do that. but sometime we as girl or woman definitely get bad opinion about be independent, several guy feels pushed aside or feel unable to equalize themselves, is it fair?  we as girl want handle our self, we can! but sometimes independent women still need a relationship, but there must be "MUTUALISM", we as independent women also need validation in the form of affe...

it's such a beautiful day why are you so blue? hey it's been too long that you shut your heart out well i know it's true - Coldiac song "so, how?" several people if they get some question like that maybe just talk abt "cerita hari ini" but now i want talk about "grateful for everything" yeah, we know that "bersyukur" some people definitely  have wishes want to be rich, clear from any trouble, get a support system or the simplest is being able to control ourself anything can be a wishes but anything is also not our destiny sometime i think, how god compile my life?, i always try but that is not my own isn't fair? even some people want not that but they can get it, without effort okey that is the meaning of destiny. when you get without or with effort you definitely get it. everything have been controlled, everything have been compile, everything that because God is a KING OF OUR LIFE! we can handle but we cant change, yeah maybe ju...

Flashback when you met me Your buzzcut and my hair bleached Even in my worst times You could see the best of me Flashback to my mistakes My rebounds, my earthquakes Even in my worst lies You saw the truth in me... My hands shake, I can't explain this ah, ha, ha, ha Say my name and everything just stops I don't want you like a best friend...-Taylor swift's song this is a stupid things in my life, but i like it, yes i falling in love with stranger:) the date and the time is disguise how's he make me fall? Since 3 October 2017 ago we meet at school when we make a circle for group discussion. how do you feel stranger catch eyes with you? definitely you feel that! yeah at that time i also felt it. when i saw he, he make condition is a normal. he make me confused, am i like weird or stupid person? its a suck moment days 2 i look him with masker, i think he is handsome like a several boys but the way its different. okay enough i just like it, not fall! 31 December 2018 i meet ...