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Hiii, Zaman hereee! If you asked me what I expected from KKN before it started, honestly, my expectations were pretty high. Not because I already knew what KKN was going to be like, but because I had absolutely no idea what to expect. I only had one main wish: I wanted to be placed somewhere far from Jogja. Like, really far if possible. I wanted to go somewhere I had never been before, meet people I had never known before, and experience things I probably would never have experienced otherwise. And even though UPN's definition of “far” was basically Central Java, at least that part still happened. I ended up in Magelang. I also had expectations about my group. I thought I was gonna get a bunch of super extroverted people. The type who aren't awkward, can talk about literally anything, randomly ask you to go somewhere, laugh at stupid things together, and basically make you think, “Okay, this is gonna be fun.” Turns out... NO. My first meet with Group 214 was probably one of the...

HI zaman here!  I think this blog is not only about my thoughts but also reviews of books I've read. This book is also a kind of small record for me. The second record, after bandung menjelang pagi by Brian Khrisna . I finished the alchemist in only about 1.5–2 days (214 pages), honestly… felt a bit off at the beginning. Because my expectations were already off the charts. The story suddenly shifts to a shepherd, dreams, a journey, and things that just didn’t connect with my thoughts at the time. I even thought, “ Why is this book so hyped up? ”  Well, i’ve summarized the main points about this book. A Boy Without a Name In t he a lchemist , Paulo Coelho doesn’t even bother to give the main character a full name. He is simply a boy a shepherd from Andalusia.  He chooses to be a shepherd instead of becoming a priest, as his parents wanted, for one simple reason: he wants to see the world . He wants to walk, move, and experience life directly. His father once sa...

2 days ago, i visited a children’s cancer foundation in yogyakarta. At first, it was just for my scholarship social project. Honestly, i never expected this project to take me this far. The project focuses on something that is often forgotten " how children with cancer can still get their right to education" . They are still between zero and eighteen years old, an age when kids should be learning, playing, making friends, and experiencing school like others. My team comes from different places. Some are from Surabaya, Aceh, and Banten, and i’m based in Yogyakarta. Because of that, i decided to find a children’s cancer foundation here by myself. In the beginning, everything felt unclear. I imagined the project would be full of action, meeting the kids, teaching them, spending time together. But my mentor said something that really hit me "action alone is not enough". We need a prototype . Something real. Something useful. That’s how i ended up visiting a children’...

I want to share a small story i got in bandung. It happened when i was on my way to a cafe near ITB. I ordered an online motorcycle ride, and the driver who came was an older man, almost at retirement age. But he was still working. Not because he wanted to, but because he had to. In this economy, surviving is already a challenge. At first, we just talked casually. I asked him what people from outside usually look for when they come to bandung. He answered simply. Bandung is just like this, he said. People come for the cool weather, high places, or just to walk around. Then we talked about food. I told him i had just tried mie kocok . He smiled and said it made sense. Mie kocok is expensive because it uses cow skin, which is hard to get and costs a lot. That was when i found out that he used to sell mie kocok himself. Before the pandemic, his business was doing well. He had many customers, and life was quite comfortable. But after COVID, everything changed. Rent became expensive, co...

Hello this is diary zaman!! It feels like it’s been a long time since I last wrote on this blog. Today, I want to talk about a book by Bang Tere Liye called Janji . Some of you may have read it, some of you may not. But I think this story is worth sharing. The main character in Janji is Bahar Safar. The story is told using a back-and-forth timeline, so we slowly get to know who Bahar really is. At first, he looks like a rebellious young man, someone people would easily judge and underestimate. And honestly, when we hear about a troublemaker, especially one accused of burning a religious school, our first reaction is usually negative. Bahar was once a student in a religious boarding school. He did not like the rules and felt trapped there. He kept breaking them until one serious incident changed everything. After the fire, he was expelled from the pesantren. What looked like the end of his life became the moment that changed his direction. Before Bahar left, Buya, his teacher, gave ...

Hellow, I’m Zahra! It’s been a while since I’ve written here, life has been full of tasks, assignments, tests, and all those endless college things. I honestly missed writing, but lately I finally had a quiet moment to read again. And this time, I picked a book that many people have been talking about  Atomic Habits by James Clear. I didn’t expect much at first, but after reading just a few chapters, something clicked. The book talks about how small habits can lead to big changes, but what caught my attention most was this idea: Focus on the system, not the goal. It sounds simple, but it hit me deeply. I started realizing that so many times in my life, I’ve been chasing goals to be productive, to be fluent in English, to get good grades, to improve myself. But when I failed, I often blamed my motivation instead of looking at the system behind it. The truth is, everyone can have the same goal, we all want to be successful, healthier, more confident, or happier. But what makes som...

What’s the mean? horse blinders? actually horse blinders has different meaning in my dictionary. Still focus. Still consistency.  A horse that still walk whatever the condition is crowds, their still move in other place and accept everything distraction.  Why? because they never seen beside of their. Not because of they are ignore with environment, but their main motion from coachman. Because coachman want the horse need to focus. Maybe without the device, they can distraction easily by crowds, horns, or people on the side of the road, even though their goal is clear : to continue to the destination according to the coachman’s instruction. SAME!! Sometime people need horse blinders, its not really wearing blinders on a horse. But a mindset to keep moving forward without any distraction by things have nothing to do with our personal improve. Because what people say or environment is too noisy with unclear standard: its not our business . In our life , we have “coachmen” is our ...

These days, people are overthinking almost everything, especially when it comes to personal achievements. It’s likely one of the factors driving our stress levels up, making us obsess over small details. Overthinking is actually something we can manage ourselves, but sometimes it’s just tough to stay focused on one thing, let alone avoid overthinking altogether. And now, in the digital era, we’re constantly bombarded with information and trends from everywhere, especially social media. Our brains end up overloaded trying to process it all, which only leads to more overthinking and confusion about what information really matters.   Scrolling through social media can feel like a quick escape or a way to heal, but sometimes, without realizing it, we start comparing ourselves to others. We see others on vacation, in better jobs, or in healthy relationships, and it makes us feel like we’re not enough, driving us to overthink and wonder, “Why am I not like that?” When friends consta...

Hellow! how has it been lately? has it been busy? or do you always have a full schedule? oughh that's definitely REALLY tired!! but, have you ever felt that the activities we are doing are not working? like we never felt the result, it wasn't like our plan or what we thought about it. Maybe it's our fault in managing our time or we're not grateful for everything. Sometimes we think that if in one day we always do heavy activities and almost spend a lot of time it is a ‘productive person’ but we also forget there is such a thing as ‘busy people’, being a busy person does not mean that we achieve something significant. Sometimes we often feel busy doing many small things, but not focusing our energy on tasks that are really important and impactful, i think that's what makes us feel that what we do is not working in ourselves.  The fun fact is multitasking also sometimes makes us slower in completing tasks because our minds are not focused on one thing and research pro...

Easy they come, easy they go I jump from the train, I ride off alone I never grew up, it's getting so old Help me hold onto you I've been the archer I've been the prey Who could ever leave me, darling? But who could stay? -the archer- taylor's song the song its so relate in some people are you still here? hows your feeling the "victims" of heartache made by yourself? are you still remember about the good moments with him/her/ yourself? i think It's absolutely normal to miss those times and feel a little lost when they're not there anymore.  we as "victims" or maybe "pelaku" must also always remember where, when, or even the crazy efforts we make sometimes the results are not that crazy.  and now maybe the results are already looking bad, we don't know if the process is wrong or if it's from ourselves that's wrong,  I'm still happy with the butterfly era is ending the opponent has left the battlefield, I've been t...

  i haven't intro music for this topic, so how's your opinion about independent woman or independent girl? i think we often meet like this in this era, who doesn't want to be a woman who is independent and has character? definitely i said "I AM!" be know being an independent person is a difficult journey, we must try hard and sometimes, if we don't continue with our self-belief, it can feel like the whole world is against us. but that's where the magic happens! In those moments of doubt and struggle, we find our true strength.  and be independent person is choosing, you want you must do that. but sometime we as girl or woman definitely get bad opinion about be independent, several guy feels pushed aside or feel unable to equalize themselves, is it fair?  we as girl want handle our self, we can! but sometimes independent women still need a relationship, but there must be "MUTUALISM", we as independent women also need validation in the form of affe...

it's such a beautiful day why are you so blue? hey it's been too long that you shut your heart out well i know it's true - Coldiac song "so, how?" several people if they get some question like that maybe just talk abt "cerita hari ini" but now i want talk about "grateful for everything" yeah, we know that "bersyukur" some people definitely  have wishes want to be rich, clear from any trouble, get a support system or the simplest is being able to control ourself anything can be a wishes but anything is also not our destiny sometime i think, how god compile my life?, i always try but that is not my own isn't fair? even some people want not that but they can get it, without effort okey that is the meaning of destiny. when you get without or with effort you definitely get it. everything have been controlled, everything have been compile, everything that because God is a KING OF OUR LIFE! we can handle but we cant change, yeah maybe ju...

Flashback when you met me Your buzzcut and my hair bleached Even in my worst times You could see the best of me Flashback to my mistakes My rebounds, my earthquakes Even in my worst lies You saw the truth in me... My hands shake, I can't explain this ah, ha, ha, ha Say my name and everything just stops I don't want you like a best friend...-Taylor swift's song this is a stupid things in my life, but i like it, yes i falling in love with stranger:) the date and the time is disguise how's he make me fall? Since 3 October 2017 ago we meet at school when we make a circle for group discussion. how do you feel stranger catch eyes with you? definitely you feel that! yeah at that time i also felt it. when i saw he, he make condition is a normal. he make me confused, am i like weird or stupid person? its a suck moment days 2 i look him with masker, i think he is handsome like a several boys but the way its different. okay enough i just like it, not fall! 31 December 2018 i meet ...

Long live the walls we crashed through How the kingdom lights shined just for me and you I was screaming, "Long live all the magic we made" And bring on all the pretenders, I'm not afraid Long live all the mountains we moved I had the time of my life fighting dragons with you I was screaming, "Long live that look on your face" And bring on all the pretenders One day we will be remembered   - Taylor swift's song if i talk about friend in my life, do i have to be good at choosing friends? why? why should we choose our friends?  actually i cannot answer the question, its very difficult to find a good answer, only ourselves and those around of us can answer it. yes, i got it  when i find little zahra and her friends, we named "sparkling generation" its really old but have a lot memories. do you remember? when we met at the mosque to open "ppdb" event, from there we left with our parents and we were like strangers to each other. Talk, get to k...

hai!! i'm zaman, that's my short name in senior high school, actually my name is zahra amanda but there's also someone named zahra, that's why i like zaman. any people always talk abt mbti or personality, i'm an  ENTP and they say i'm an extroved , i dont know why they say like that, but suddenly i often feel socially exhausted but on the other hand i really like talking with strangers around of me especially with people who give me good feedback, they make me learn about how to interact well with new friend because different time definitely different people:).  i'm just an ordinary person but i really like kind of my self, i like to write, watch films, make a short video (this is for challange my self with english), and workout. long time ago i have podcast in spotify but until now i don't have idea to upload anymore, why did i make a podcast account there? i used to get inspiration from one of the video on the tiktok, the point is "if you have pot...